Finally 30!

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So I’m that strange girl who couldn’t wait to turn thirty! I think since I was a teen🙈It’s that serious! So July 10th 2016 was quite special for me😊

Back then I just admired how Women in their thirties seemed like they had it all together! They were done with the discovery stage that comes with our twenties & instead more self aware, more confident, more secure & a whole lot more unapologetic…

That was what I looked forward to then & yes even now some of those traits have come to pass and I thank God… But in my late twenties I begun to seek something different, for so much more…

Right now, turning 30 symbolized Purpose! It Symbolizes courage & less self desire, but driven by a Purpose bigger than me!

His Will! God’s Will be done & not my own is all I desire in my thirties & that usually means dying to self each day so that He may live in us… And that usually means letting go of a lot, letting go of that which you know doesn’t bring  Him Glory; it could be the music you listen to, what you watch, the company you keep, the relationship you know He hasn’t blessed or that habit that even you know doesn’t honour your body or bring Him Glory…

6 Months Later since my bday in July, I now know that some of the habits take time & others are almost an immediate transition… But His Grace is surely sufficient!!!

There’s a lot more I’m definitely not taking with me into 2017! Because 31 will require for me to step it up even more & seek His face even more earnestly.

I am still a work in progress, but He promises to complete the good work that He began in Us… So if you’re reading this & you know that God has called you, but you fear because you have a past, or you lack the courage or fear the response from the rest of the world… I urge you to take your fears to God & just say Yes! You may not even know what the assignment is, but say Yes… God is only looking for your Availability & Christ is made perfect in our weaknesses- 2nd Corinth 12:9 “My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”

So like Paul, Moses, Jonah, Gideon, Sarah and many more who at first doubted, questioned & feared the call! Because they either didn’t feel good enough or worthy or believed that God could actually do what He promised! But God surprised them all & used them all! as flawed as they were for the fulfillment of His Purpose.

Lastly John 4- Jesus & the Samaritan Woman has been my biggest Ministry this year…

Jesus was in Samaria where he met a lady at the well & asked her; “Will you give me a drink?” And the Samaritan woman responded “You are a Jew and I am a Samaritan Woman. How can you ask me for a drink?” (For Jews do not associate with Samaritans) Jesus answered her, “If you knew the Gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked Him and He would have given you Living Water” “Sir you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this Living water? Are you greater than our Father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?” She asked & Jesus answered “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give Him will never thirst. Indeed the water I give Him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” She then asked for this water so that she may not thirst again & Jesus told her “Go call your husband and come back” “I have no husband” she replied. Jesus said to her “You are right when you say you have no husband, that fact is, you have had five husbands and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true.” She was then convinced that He was a Prophet- but said “Our Fathers worshiped on this mountain, but You Jews claim that the place where we must worship is in Jerusalem.” Jesus declared, “Believe me, woman, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. You Samaritans Worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. Yet a time is coming and has now come when True Worshipers will Worship the Father in Spirit and in Truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is Spirit and His worshipers must worship in Spirit and in Truth”. The Woman said “I know the Messiah is coming. When He comes He will explain everything to us.” Then Jesus declared “I who speak to you am He”.

Then leaving her water jar, the woman went back to the town and said to the people “Come and see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could He be the Christ!?”

And many Samaritans came out to see Him & believed because of the woman’s testimony. They urged Jesus to stay with them & He stayed two days & they said to the woman “We no longer believe just because of what you said; now we have heard for ourselves and we know that this man is really the saviour of the World”

Like the Samaritan Woman, my desire is for my testimony to make others Believe! and for them to experience Christ for themselves & accept Him as their Saviour.

Her story really speaks to me, because like her, I too I’m flawed, like her, Jesus knows everything about me, like her, Jesus still loves me enough to Minister to me, like her, I too have to let go of that which doesn’t bring him glory & take my fill of His Living water & go out into the world & spread His Word! Share my testimony & bring others to Him. Do you realize she even left her Water Jar at the well? She instead got the Living Water she desired. One of the reasons why it’s always symbolic for me to go to the Ocean, especially this most recent trip in December, is what the Water symbolizes the walks on the beach and being one with the water is a very healing process for me, I have some of my deepest and most beautiful devotions there that I treasure…

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But back to the Samaritan Woman; He chose her, the Woman who’s name is not even shared, showing that it doesn’t even matter who you are! God can use you! And He used her to minister to the Samaritans! & because of her, a whole town heard the good news & believed that indeed Jesus Christ is the Saviour!

It doesn’t matter who you are… God can use you, God can use you to fulfill His Purpose.

My Hearts desire & prayer🙏🏾

And just like Jesus… Begin Ministry at 30! In my own small way the journey has begun! May His Will & Grace guide me through🙏🏾

Wishing you a Blessed & Courageous 2017🙌🏾Heed to the Call & Walk into your Purpose🙏🏾

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Gratitude- Lessons 2016

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2016 Thank you for the Validation🙏🏾

When God decides to pleasantly surprise You! He surely does!

I’ve shared this before…

You see this year started off very rough for me! I started it off with a Fast, a Spiritual Fast- that led to one of the toughest spiritual warfares I’ve ever experienced! I never thought it would end or if I would make it out restored- but God is so able! & so Faithful!

I had to go through what I did so that He could be back on my throne as my King & nobody else! We serve a Jealous God, so when we put others on that pedestal- it won’t be long before He reclaims His position no matter how painful it may be. I know that sounds ruthless! not the sweet, encouraging stuff you’re used too huh? But that same loving, friend is also a Just Father who also practices Tough Love which we all need at one point or another.

For me the testing moments grew my Faith exponentially, anyone who knows me, like really knows me, can see and or sense the change. It humbled me & reminded me of the bigger picture, which is to die to self each day so that He may live in me & through me fulfill His Purpose. I am only but a vessel, here for the service of Christ & others & that is and should be the only thing that matters.

And when I finally accepted that reality & decided to look at life with Grateful eyes; doors begun to open, wounds begun to heal & the joy of the Lord became my Strength & His Peace that surpasses all Understanding became my dwelling place.

So even this undeserving Accolade only came after I learned this lesson… so my other grand lesson from 2016 is- stay Grateful! for if we remain Grateful in all things the Good Lord will give you even more to be Grateful for🙏🏾

Keep an Attitude of Gratitude, for it will surely elevate your Altitude, but not that you should gloat! but as a show of God’s Favour and Grace and all Glory belongs to Him.

Thanx again Business Daily Africa🙏🏾It is a Humbling Honour to be a Top 40 Under 40 Woman… Still Surreal.

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The Pruning- Lessons 2016

The Season of Pruning majorly describes 2016! Lots of clips & cuts so that we can get to the next level- hard, painful experiences, whether for some it was the end of a marriage or a relationship, or the end of a regime, or the loss of a life, or the end of a friendship or the loss of a job & the beginning of uncharted waters, new ground, new territory, new Season…

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The Pruning that has taken place in 2016 really made it abundantly clear that some roads you will have to walk alone or not take everyone with you, that you have to be ready to let go! And travel lighter on your next journey and bravely walk away from familiar ground & walk into the Unknown…

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The unfamiliar can be unsettling, uncomfortable, strange, Hard & sometimes very Painful! But boy do you Grow!

The Growing Pains come with many lessons if we choose to learn them; it may be a nudge to help you grow your Faith in God which best happens when He is all that you have! or maybe you need to mend your trust in Him which again is only tested when Life becomes harder than usual, or maybe it’s time to boost your levels of gratitude, which again happens when we loose that which we may have taken for granted.

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That said, If you loose something during the Pruning season- remember that God does not leave a Void! Trust Him to replace that space with something even better! But!…

Yes there is a but…

That something better only comes with Obedience. Obedience to His Will & not your own. Obedience is the key to the Promise, so surrender to His Will, to the Process & say Yes to the lessons & allow for the journey to unfold.

Most times we lack the courage & the patience, well at least for me that’s been the case- too scared to try His Will because I knew His Will would require for me to step up! yet my will was easier & quicker, but the consequences that usually follow my short-cut route can sometimes even take a life time to mend.

So during the Pruning Process… Trust the Process & Trust His timing. He never promised it would be easy, but it would surely be worth it.

Luke 22:42 “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

Your Will may seem better in that moment, but His will is Good & Perfect in the Long Run! You just need to get through this Season & bask in His Glory later.

Be Blessed

Love Grace

And Happy 2017, remember that after the Pruning comes the Promise! I don’t know about you, but I’m hopeful about 2017😊

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Reason for The Season

For unto us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace- Isaiah 9:6❤

Born to Save Mankind, Born to take up the Cross, Born to show you & I what Love means❤

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What a Year a Beautiful Year of Lessons 2016 has been… both hard & painful but all ending so Beautifuly because God is a God of Purpose. 2016 has been one Revelation after another, where God has been quite Audible in my Life, both personally & publicly! Given me so many undeserving gifts, many hard lessons to swallow & painful realizations.

My TL is filled with “2016 needs to end already” “it’s been the worst” And many like sentiments… And I totally get where most were coming from; the entertainment world has had more RIP’s than ever before, the US Election… Well let’s just leave that alone, The never ending Corruption story here in Kenya & in many of our personal lives we have been Challenged, pruned & tested.

For me the beauty of it all lies in the lessons learned thereafter & fully trusting God like my life depends on it! Not like I have a plan B in place, but actually keeping Him as my Plan PERIOD!

I joined the 30’s Club this Year & it was very significant for me because I knew it meant another level for me Spiritually! I’ve always run away from Ministry… But not for long! God has had the last laugh😊because now in my thirties He really is all I care about & want to share with the world, the only part of me that excites me, calms me, gives me peace & above all secures me.

So a year later since I started this blog, I give it back to God yet again, He was very clear that I should use this space for Ministry hence all my blog posts sharing about my Faith with the purpose to show you that God is Real, God is Faithful, God is Merciful, God is Just & most of All God is Love and He gave His one & only Son so that you & I may have Everlasting Life… He’s just waiting on you.

Love Grace

PS: These pics with my babies are my symbol of Love❤

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REVIVAL TIME

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So an estimated 30,000 Illegal Kenyan immigrants are now at the imminent risk of being deported from the USA back to Kenya.

People were hoping President Elect Trump was bluffing on his campaign promise of deporting immigrants among many other things he bluntly said- but he is indeed proving that it wasn’t all just campaign rhetoric but he is clearly staying true to his word.

I’ve ranted and raved enough on my social media sites, so this piece today is the next step- not a rant but a clear wake-up call!

You see after the big announcement last week we were all responding from a very emotional place and as expected because Trump elicited such strong emotions in his country and across the world, making the rest of us outside America to begin to look within and around and wonder and prod if this is our new reality. For me it took me back to 2007/2008 which was a very hard and trying time for Kenya- divided by Tribal lines which was never more clearer- in fact never did I feel until then that to some I was inferior because of my tribe and certain tribes more superior. It was hard to interview the IDP’s and to hear the cries of those who hurt in the middle of the night because we lived in an area that was at the heat of it all!

Forward to 2016 and Race is clearly still prevalent and sorry to say Trump only revived it- it never left he just gave it a face. He also gave a face to sexism which also sorry to say is still very much alive in our offices, when we walk on the streets, and very much so on social media too! nothing is new here- Trump just breathed life into the painful norms of society.

That said, this is still a BRILLIANT time to be alive- and the reason for that is the Revival that is now taking place, people that I’ve never heard say let’s pray are now initiating prayer, and also as a Christian never have I been this challenged to ask myself;- WHAT WOULD JESUS DO? Jesus would Love regardless, regardless of the Hate Spewing He would Love, he would preach Hope and He would keep the Faith.

There is nothing as Powerful as having compassion, being there for marginalized communities wakes you up to the Ill’s of this world and for me this has challenged me to extend a hand more often and breath life to Love over and over again without tire.

Now to move from the Spiritual aspect- People are poking fun of the Kenyans who will now be forced to come home and the meme’s started the minute they announced Trump’s win- but if you think about it soberly, this can be a great moment of Revival! a time for Africa to think for itself, to find and create our own solutions instead of looking to the west- Rise to the occasion and work together in Harmony and togetherness.

So many Africans escape to the West for Greener Pastures, some even without a plan just leave and know and believe that being there will always be much better than being here at home, which is heart-breaking! I have family members who’ve done that and each time they come home they are amazed that we can not only survive but THRIVE! and that is the opportunity this moment presents.

I know it will take time to think outside Tribal lines, but I wish and yearn for the day we would vote on Principal and Merit and not cry about Corruption and the ills that drain us and stagnate our growth. I yearn for the day when Electoral education will go to the grass-roots and preach this message, so that Serekali Saidia will be a long gone narrative- but to achieve all this we must first start by talking about it, by not hiding behind it, by being willing to hear each-other and above all Love each other first before we see Tribe or any difference-  For ultimately We are all One, We are Love and We are Strong!

Thank You Trump, for Waking us Up! May we remain as Woke come our own General Election in 2017!

Grace M

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SUN DON’T SHINE IN THE SHADE

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Most of my life I’ve played small or downplayed who I am for fear of judgement or lack of acceptance… For too long I kept my views to myself for fear of being criticized or dressed down or over-dressed my body type for fear of being shunned, but what quality of Life is that really? God has designed each and every one of us uniquely different with a great Purpose!

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I strongly believe that I am who I am now because I finally embraced all that I am and shared that with the world!

If I could quote Elizabeth Gilbert– “Embrace the Glorious Mess that you are!” because we are all so far from perfect, winging it most of the time, but don’t run away from who you are or try to change who you are to fit in a box! that would be an injustice to God’s Master Work.

For as long as you look for someone else to validate who you are, you are setting yourself up for disaster. You have to be whole and complete in yourself. No one can give you that. You have to know who you are and whose you are!

Remember the Sun don’t shine in the shade(you’ve got to say that American style;-) So stop playing small and Embrace all that you are!

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And the great thing about embracing and owning who we are is you hardly find yourself in a situation where you’re settling for less, because whenever your inner GPS is off kilter it means trouble awaits, so strive to be in tune with yourself and allow for that to lead you to make decisions.

Know that you were made to serve a purpose, and no one else has that same purpose, but one that is uniquely yours to seek and find… Where can you find it? Your maker! only your source has the hand-book! only He has the manual that will point you in the right direction.

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I’m well on my journey and excited at the prospects ahead because I know who I am! that is the most important part- know who you are and even more importantly- know who you are in the Lord for that is all that matters!- What HE says about you!

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KUMBUKA NI MUNGU PEKEE!! (Nyashinski)

 

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New Season

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Happy New Month! and welcome the Season of Reflection…

What a year this has been for me, roller-coaster ride to say the least, I went through some of my darkest days this year- but one thing this year has taught me is the minute you’re just about to give up is usually the moment just before your Big BREAK-THROUGH!

October was my month of breakthroughs! My season to smile, to count my blessings and appreciate the journey, because the dark days made me stronger, humbled me, refined me and made me more aware of what I need to work on internally…

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And now I stand amazed when I smile and laugh, when I actually find myself looking back at stuff that used to bother me and I can finally laugh about it! because in those dark moments I never thought I’d make it through… But see God!

Joy always comes in the morning!!

So to anyone who may be discouraged remember that this moment too shall pass and you will surely smile again and remain confident that you see the Goodness of the Lord in the land of the living-  Psalm 27:13

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As we approach the end of yet another year granted to us- may we remain Grateful in all things, joyful in all situations and Live Enthusiastically, Forgive freely and Love with arms wide open!

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KANYE WEST- LOWLIGHTS

You want me to give you a testimony about my life
And how good he’s been to me
I don’t know what to tell you about him
I love him so much with all my heart and my soul
With every bone in my body I love him so much
Because he’s done so much for me.

Every morning
Every day of my life
I won’t always be crying tears
In the middle of the night, and I won’t always have to wake up
By myself wondering how I’m gonna get through the day
I won’t always have to think about what I’m gonna do
And how I’m gonna, how I’m gonna make it
How I’m gonna get there, because he…
He’s gonna be there for me
Some day the sky above will open up
And he will reach out his hand and guide me through
Oh yes he will
I won’t always be crying these tears
I won’t always be feeling so blue
Some day, he will open up the door for me
And call my name
Some day he will
I don’t know if anybody understands what that feels like.

No matter what you’ve been through
Or where you’ve been he’s always there
With his arms open wide
Accepting me
For who I am
And I love him so much
I couldn’t do it without him I wouldn’t want to
I’m crying now
It feels so good to be free
To be accepted for who you are and loved no matter what
Oh lord thank you
You are the joy of my life.

 

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DO YOUR THING!

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“Do your thing. Do it unapologetically. Don’t be discouraged by criticism. You probably already know what they’re going to say. Pay no mind to the fear of failure. It’s more valuable than success. Take ownership, take chances, and have fun. And no matter what, don’t ever stop doing your thing” Ashor Roth

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I was having a conversation with my make-up artist, Wacuka as she was dolling me up for this shoot that has stuck with me days later…

You see so many times we give less of ourselves for fear of judgement or lack of acceptance and instead dim our shine or worse still feel the need to change who we essentially are to fit in! not realizing that we are in fact short changing ourselves, because we really only start to Live fully when we embrace our most Authentic Self!

When we exist from our most Authentic self, we begin to Live more honestly and come from a happier place, because we finally understand that we are who we are and uniquely who we are, so regardless of where we may be in life we won’t feel the urge to compare, to whine, to grumble, but be true to our journey, trust the process and keep learning and growing…

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“We need more people who are willing to demonstrate what it looks like to Risk and Endure failure, disappointment, and regret- people willing to feel their own hurt instead of working it out on other people, people willing to own their stories, live their values, and keep showing up” Brene Brown

To mess up you will! but keep showing up anyway! Don’t be afraid to be different, Own your story and keep doing your thing! Keep doing that thing that sparks the fire in you! keep doing that thing that makes you jump out of bed! Keep doing that thing that motivates you to be a better person each day…

“AUTHENTICITY IS THE DAILY PRACTICE OF LETTING GO OF WHO WE THINK WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE AND EMBRACING WHO WE ARE”  Brene Brown

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DO YOUR THING Honey!

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TOP 40 UNDER 40

 


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On the 14th of October 2016! I received an Award that validated all the extra hours, the leaps of faith, the moments of doubt and most of all- always trusting that there is indeed always a BIGGER PURPOSE!

Receiving the Top 40 Award is beyond humbling for me, a sure sign that God’s plan surpasses mine, His plan is indeed always greater.

You see for women in Media we have to work twice as hard to grow! we have to sacrifice twice as much to seat at the table, in most cases we may have “High Visibility, but No Power” So each time I see women in Management in the Media Industry, Women who keep pushing, keep soaring & Keep growing! I smile- I smile because I know what it takes and I know what we go through to get there, unfortunately the credit is hardly ever given to us, but rather to the Men;-  “Oh! she’s sleeping with the boss, or she must know someone” are just some of the common insinuations, but hardly is it ever about our hard work…

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So to Business Daily and the Nation Media Group- THANK YOU! Thank you for finding 40 Women who work quietly in the back-ground, who are doing amazing things for this country and beyond, and seeing Greatness in us that we sometimes don’t even see in our-selves.

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To any young girl reading this or any women aspiring to shatter any Glass Celing- Go for it! You are able, you are competent & you are the right person for the job.

So many times as women we doubt ourselves, we don’t trust our abilities, we second guess our decisions & watch as the men go for it! whether they think they can or not Men go for it- Period! Whether they are ready or not! They say yes first then figure it out later… And that has been my one Big take-away from them! Take up the challenge whether I have experience or not, ask the questions, learn the lessons, enjoy the process & grow! For only until we are out of our Comfort Zones do we then begin to Soar.

If I could share the speech I gave;-

“I dedicate this award to Women! Women who aspire! Who shatter Glass Ceilings & keep inspiring us to keep soaring. All the women in this room thank you for being an Inspiration. To my daughters may they grow up knowing that the sky is in fact not the limit! But with each achievement to keep soaring!

To my dear Mother who’s here with me, Thank you for always leading by example! I am truly blessed to call you Mum!

Thank you Business Daily, I am incredibly humbled and pleasantly surprised to make it to this Elite Group of Amazing Women. I may stand here alone, but sooooo many have come before me like my Mother, My Mentors, My brilliant friends and Partners who have believed in me even when I didn’t believe in myself, so if I could end with a quote- “Surround yourself with the dreamers & the doers, the believers and the thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who see Greatness within you, even when you don’t see it yourself, To God be the Glory! This is all because of Him!”

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And now the work really begins! Aim higher, keep soaring, keep reaching and above all else Keep GOD FIRST!

 

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Destination Addiction (TOP 40 LESSONS)

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“Beware of destination addiction: the idea that happiness is in the next place, the next job or with the next partner. Until you give up the idea that happiness is somewhere else, it will never be where you are” Robert Holden

Robert speaking such TRUTH!! There have been times in my life when I thought that maybe if I just made more money I’d be happier, or if I was married having a life partner to walk this journey with- I’d be happier or if I owned certain material things I’d be happier! Well… What a Grand lesson this year has taught me!

In one of my lowest moments this year, completely broken before God- I told Him I can’t continue as is, waiting for a better future not wanting my present is not a way to live at all! And so I asked Him for ONE THING! and one thing ONLY!

I prayed “Lord please give me Joy as I wait for my heart’s desire” A very simple prayer that has now ended up being my most POWERFUL Prayer yet! because not long after that I found joy in my career again and became involved in projects that lit a spark in me, which was lacking for a very long time, but only until I surrendered fully to my Father and decided to be grateful for what I have- He then brought the joy back in my life and now that Joy is attracting even more to be joyful for- My friendships & relationships are blossoming and my career is getting to a place where I’ve always prayed it would!

So if I could emphasis on Robert’s words- Find joy in your present state and give up the idea that is somewhere else or it will never be where you are!

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